So much pain still

I have 2 abscesses at the moment that have to be packed daily and are so painful.
I feel sick all the time and can't eat - just don't know what to do with myself!
I get so run down and then I feel bad for letting everyone down and in reality I hate being poorly and needing help from others.
I need to remember how crap it is to be in this place and how much better I feel when I am fit and healthy. I'm fed up of feeling poorly.
What can I do to make a change from this cycle? I need a new life plan that involves me moving forward. This is something I need to work on and take seriously. I can't carry on like this.