I am going to have my stitches out tomorrow. I am really dreading it as my wound is very sore and infected. I know that it is going to be very painful and the nurse won't be happy that I haven't been to the GP to get some antibiotics but I haven't been out of the house.
I can't remember the last time I got dressed - probably last Wednesday. I just feel empty and numb and I give in. I haven't rang my cpn or the crisis team as they can't help me, no one can. I am just stupid and let everyone down.
I don't know how to get myself out of this dark place and I need to get back to work. However I've just got to get through tomorrow first.